Why bother?

*sigh* I guess it’s just another stupid day for me. I guess I should have expected it. It started out all right. Me, Aubree and Nick went rock climbing. I led the 5.9 (the same one I fell on last time) and got to the top. Yay for me. It seemed a little easier this time too. I wonder why. (I did have to stop a lot because the rock was real cold, but that was to be expected.) After getting to the top, I went up it three more times, once after nick and once more after Aubree tried. (She got half way, which is pretty good for a beginner.)
Anyways, after that, Aubree left us because she had a banquet she needed to go to. She told me to get some money so I could go see a movie with her afterwards. So while she was gone, I hurried and worked for some. After that I hung out with Nick and Dannon. We went to Steves house but he just wanted to play video games with Tyrel and … the other guys name I can’t recall. Well, video games not really being our thing, we left. We went and saw “The One” with Jet Li. Afterwards, I called Aubree to see if she wanted to hang out, but she said she might be going to hang out with Steve instead. I was like, ok.. whatever.. do what you want. Steve called and he’s like, “Yea, I don’t know if I should hang out with you guys or go out with my friends.” When I mentioned Aubree, he was like.. “yea.. But I don’t want to take her away from you. Besides, I could only buy us like water anyways.” I told him I didn’t matter, if Aubree chose him over me, What could I do? Well, she did. Dannon and Nick said that it was prob just the girl thing where they go for the person who can buy them the most expensive stuff. Me w/o money, left Steve, who told her he would buy her dinner. So, I lost. We went to the new mall again, and tried to climb the wall, but it was crowded again. Afterwards we went to fat-cats to find Steve and those guys. (It’s a bowling/arcade/pool place.) I was going to give Aubree the money I made. I made it so I could spend time with her, and so I didn’t want it, but we couldn’t find them. So I left and came home. Home at 9:00. All my friends ditched me, how lame.
Anyways, I called Tina when I got home. She was getting ready for bed since she had nothing to do either. I offered to do something but it would have taken too long and stuff. We’re prob going to get together on Tuesday. *snicker* So much for Dannon’s “No girl would want to spend time with you.” theory.
Just got more great news. My great grandma died. And her funerals Tuesday. Fuck me. I really hate life right now. And Nagi’s not around… she’s not talking to me anyways. I suppose it doesn’t matter either way… it’s not like she could hold me either. Why is it whenever I want someone to just hold… yea.. fuck it.

I’m going to go hike up to doughnut falls. It’s a nice hike I guess. And I guess if I don’t show up anymore, it means I’ve joined my grandma. *snicker* Wish I had some boots, but oh well.

Hope to see you later…. Bye

P.S. I really wish I didn’t get jelous. I really hate it. Especially when I have no reason. Aubree proved that one to me. Go to my grandma’s funeral, and then come back and start my life. Thats my resolution right now.

About Matthew Jones

Writer, Programmer, Astronomer, Dreamer, Wisher, Fighter. Always striving to be better than I was.
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