Ok… I won’t stop posting… as far as I’m concerned, I still love her…. and so there is no reason for me to stop. I guess I can fully understand why she hates me now… I always told her I was too good to be true. So I guess I’ll continue loving her, and she can continue to think I’m scum…. And again, I await the future. As for her… I once told her that all she had to do was tell me to stay away, and no matter how much it hurt, I would… and from what I get from everyone, she wants me to stay away. I’ll cry over the loss of a best friend, but I won’t e-mail her or message her anymore. I’ll respect her wishes.

At least I know that for some reason, I’m not meant to be truly happy. Perhaps it’s the path I must follow.

I am after all… fates endless destiny.

The only thing I could have asked for more, was that she talk to me instead of telling everyone else to tell to tell me goodbye for her. *sigh*

~Matt

Here I sit a lonely sinner
Lost in a world that could have no winner
I walked a path I thought was best
Under a bright unholy crest
In pain and misery I walk alone
For my sins I can not atone
Yes still I walk for I know nothing else
And endure the ever stinging welts

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