“I was sitting outside one cloudy day, reminiscing on all the bad luck I was having. Everything was going wrong. Feeling bad, I looked up to the heavens with outstretched arms and said, “Why me, Lord? Why me?”

All of a sudden there was a clap of thunder and a bolt of lightning, and as the clouds parted, a booming voice came down from the sky, and said…, “Because, there’s something about you that just ticks me off!”

I’m actually quite pissed right now, I just spent 30mins writing this and my computer freezes as I try to post it. Funny thing is, I started the original one with that joke up above and the next line was, “I don’t know why I put that there, but it just seems to fit.” You know, at times, I really hate irony!

Lets see.. what all did I talk about… First of all, I told Alex that I’ll be moving out next month, so I guess it’s official now. I’ll prob move in with my dad for the rest of that month and move into my own place afterwards. It’ll be nice… my own place, my own food, no one else to mess it up and no more fights. I’ll be able to bring over friends w/o having to worry if the place is clean or if anything else like that. The strange luxuries you find when you live with a bunch of people. I would move out at the beginning of the month, but I’ll be in Long Beach, California for the most of the beginning. So oh well…

Also, about the trip… Bob has strep and is having trouble with his Ex-Wife so he probably won’t be able to make it which leaves only me and Dannon. Oh joy… Aubree says she wants to come too, but I doubt that will happen… and actually I kinda hope it doesn’t. It’s not that I don’t like her or anything, it’s just I feel awkward around her. I’ve loved her for a long time, and I was hurt a lot by the total rejection. *laugh* And aside from that, I find her odd. She was my best friend for three years, and she knew me better than most, but she still refused to believe it when I said I loved her. I find this strange because she should have known better than anyone that I never tell someone ‘I love you’ until I really feel and mean it. Hell, when my mom moved away for 5 years… when she came back, it took me about 6 months to get to the point where I could tell her I loved her. Horrible as this might sound, when you don’t see someone for that amount of time, you forget who they are… even if they’re your mother. So anyways, she still confuses me, but oh well. She’s also the first girl that I ever remember falling out of love with so quickly… but that’s probably because of the kind of guys she dated afterwards. I didn’t want to be known as that ‘type’ of guy. 😉

Oh well.. as for down there on the trip… I haven’t been able to find some friends with enough room for me AND my group, so we’ll probably be sleeping in a campground while we’re out there. (I love this idea anyways.. camping and Anime! Can’t beat that!!!) My friends said I could stay with them, but not anybody else, but they will let me take showers while I’m down there, so that’s cool! I’ll prob smell like smoke, but you have to do what you have to do. *grin* Lacee should be down there too, but she’ll be with her own group of friends. And asides, the one girl I would want to be with wouldn’t be there, so I guess I’ll just have to see what’s down there and take what I get.

Oh well.. I guess that’s a pretty good rewrite…. I think this one is longer too.. *laugh* Oh well. Hopefully it won’t die again or all you’ll see is “FUCK MY COMPUTER, I’m taking my ball and going home!” Hehe.

Anyways, I got to get to bed. I need to be up in 6 hours to go to the gym. I’ve been feeling sluggish as hell lately because I haven’t been able to make it there and because I couldn’t rock climb last week. If I don’t get back into it, I’ll probably die half way up the mountain of fatigue. Ugh! And I need to eat better too… hopefully my new place will help with this one as well. Anyways, I’m going to wait a little longer for my angel (while I shower) and if she’s not up, I’ll go to bed. Oh what a fun life I lead.

And in closing, I’ll leave you some words from my favorite fantasy series, The Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan. Read it if you get a chance, you won’t regret it! 🙂 Anyways, good night.
~Matt

“The Wheel of Time turns and Ages come and go, leaving memories that become legend. Legend fades to myth, and even myth is long forgotten when the Age that gave it birth returns again. In the Third Age, an Age of Prophecy, the World and Time themselves hang in the balance. What was, what will be, and what is, may yet fall under the Shadow.”

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