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		<title>Programmers, Hackers, and Technology.  I glimpse behind the hollywood myth.</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 09 Feb 2012 10:15:42 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I wrote a new post for Fictorians about how my profession is common misconstrued via television and in movies. I tried to give a realistic view, but I wonder how useful it&#8217;ll be. I figure it might help some author &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2012/02/programmers-hackers-and-crackers-i-glimpse-behind-the-hollywood-myth/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I wrote a new post for Fictorians about how my profession is common misconstrued via television and in movies.  I tried to give a realistic view, but I wonder how useful it&#8217;ll be.  I figure it might help some author who is looking to add some background story to their computer savvy characters.  Who knows.</p>
<p>Feel free to check it out:  <a href="http://www.fictorians.com/2012/02/08/programmers-hackers-and-technology/">Programmers, Hackers, and Technology via Fictorians.com</a></p>
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		<title>Free tickets to San Fran Writing Conference?  Yes please!</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 07 Feb 2012 10:01:39 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[There is an amazing opportunity to get free tickets from Writers Digest to the San Fran Writing Conference coming later this month. Editors, publishers, and authors will be in attendance making this a prime place for networking. Best part is, &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2012/02/free-tickets-to-san-fran-writing-conference-yes-please/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There is an amazing opportunity to get free tickets from Writers Digest to the San Fran Writing Conference coming later this month.  Editors, publishers, and authors will be in attendance making this a prime place for networking.  Best part is, if you&#8217;re not from the area, you&#8217;ll be able to visit me!  (No, really, that IS the best part!)</p>
<p>Check out the contest <a href="http://www.writersdigest.com/editor-blogs/guide-to-literary-agents/amazing-giveaway-a-free-pass-to-the-2012-san-francisco-writers-conference-feb-16-19-2012-worth-745">HERE</a>.</p>
<p>Good luck!</p>
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		<title>Have a good Thors-day?  (Thursday)</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 24 Dec 2010 02:47:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Thursday is named after Thor, the Norse god of thunder. As you may have seen via recent media, namely the movie that is coming out that bears his name, Thor is well known for his giant hammer, Mjolnir. This hammer &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/have-a-good-thors-day-thursday/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Thursday is named after Thor, the Norse god of thunder.  As you may have seen via recent media, namely the movie that is coming out that bears his name, Thor is well known for his giant hammer, Mjolnir.  This hammer had the ability to return to Thor&#8217;s hand when thrown.  Even with all his strength, he wore a belt that doubled his strength.  He is known for his temper and was a dangerous warrior.</p>
<p>Thor was a favorite god among the working class.  Many wore necklaces of Thor&#8217;s Hammer and asked him for blessings of fertility.  </p>
<p>So, I hope you had a good day.  Go bash someone who deserves it. <img src='http://www.stridera.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
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		<title>Happy Wōden’s Day!  (Wednesday)</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 23 Dec 2010 01:07:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Nearing the end of my “Gods of the week” series, we reach Wōden’s Day. Wōden is the Old English equivalent to the Norse god Odin. Both gain their origins from the Roman god Mercury. Mercury is the god of trade &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/happy-wodens-day-wednesday/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Nearing the end of my “Gods of the week” series, we reach Wōden’s Day.  Wōden is the Old English equivalent to the Norse god Odin.  Both gain their origins from the Roman god Mercury.</p>
<p>Mercury is the god of trade and was a messenger among the gods.  His appearance was very close to that of Hermes to include the winged shoes and the herald’s staff.  He is attributed as being a psychopomp, which is someone who guides the dead to the afterlife.  There are even stories of Mercury bringing dreams to people as they slept.</p>
<p>So, go take a nap and ask Mercury to bring you good dreams!</p>
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		<title>Happy Mars/Tiwesdæg (Tuesday)!</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 21 Dec 2010 22:58:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Continuing with my look at the gods as we approach the holidays, today we look at Mars. (Mars was translated into Tiw in Old English.) Mars is the Roman god of war and was worshipped by the soldiers of the &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/happy-marstiwesdaeg-tuesday/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Continuing with my look at the gods as we approach the holidays, today we look at Mars.  (Mars was translated into Tiw in Old English.)  Mars is the Roman god of war and was worshipped by the soldiers of the time.  Among the order of gods, only Jupiter was more powerful than He.  While his look varies from bearded man to clean-shaven youth, he is never without his spear.  Even when depicting peace, his spear visible.  Peace was what happened once you won the war.</p>
<p>Festivals toward the god happened in March, which was named after him, and in October.  These festivals signified the beginning and ending of the military tours of duty and the planting and harvesting of the fields.  </p>
<p>So, on this dies Martis, or day of Mars, thank your soldiers for the peace they’ve secured and thank Mars for his blessings upon the nation!</p>
<p>References:</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tuesday</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mars_%28mythology%29</p>
<p>http://www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/366325/Mars</p>
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		<title>Happy Selene/Moon-Day (Monday)</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 21 Dec 2010 05:24:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Monday gets its name from the old English Mōnandæg, or Moon day. The Greek Goddess of the moon is Selene, or Luna to the Romans. She is depicted as a beautiful woman with long black hair. She rides across the &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/happy-selenemoon-day-monday/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Monday gets its name from the old English Mōnandæg, or Moon day.  The Greek Goddess of the moon is Selene, or Luna to the Romans.  She is depicted as a beautiful woman with long black hair.  She rides across the sky in a silver chariot that is pulled by either a pair of horses, a team of oxen, or even dragons.  She is well known for her love affairs, including one with Zeus, the king of gods.  Selene is a favorite among poets and authors for the love of the moonlight.</p>
<p>Despite the name, Monday has a far darker side.  According to Wikipedia, Monday is the most popular day to commit suicide, call in sick, and surf the web in the Netherlands.  It also receives the criticism of every member of the standard working class.  The constant wavering and inconsistency has come out in English as the word &#8216;lunacy.&#8217;</p>
<p>And as I publish this, the moon is about to experience a total lunar eclipse.  So, go out and enjoy it.  And give thanks to Selene for the lights she shines.</p>
<p>References:</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monday</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Selene</p>
<p>http://www.pantheon.org/articles/s/selene.html</p>
<p>http://www.indepthinfo.com/weekdays/monday.shtml</p>
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		<title>Happy Sunne-day! (Sunday)</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 20 Dec 2010 03:19:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Sunday, named for the Norse goddess Sunne (or Sunna) also known as Sól. Sunne rides across the sky in her chariot pulled by the horses Allsvinn and Arvak (meaning &#8220;Very Fast&#8221; and &#8220;Early Rising&#8221;.) Sunne is said to be pursued &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/happy-sunne-day-sunday/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Sunday, named for the Norse goddess Sunne (or Sunna) also known as Sól.  Sunne rides across the sky in her chariot pulled by the horses Allsvinn and Arvak (meaning &#8220;Very Fast&#8221; and &#8220;Early Rising&#8221;.)</p>
<p>Sunne is said to be pursued by a wolf named Skoll.  Eclipses are said to be the cause of the wolf getting close enough to take a bite out of the sun.</p>
<p>Sunne will continue until the Ragnarök, the &#8216;end of days&#8217; for the gods.  During Ragnarök, many of the gods, such as Odin, Thor, Tyr, Heimdall, etc) will be killed.  Sunne herself is said to be finally caught and consumed by Skoll.  Once this happens, Sunnes daughter will take her place and provide sun to a new world of peace and love.</p>
<p>Christians consider Sunday a day of rest since it is supposed to be the day that Jesus was raised from the dead.</p>
<p>So, I hope you had a good day enjoying the little bit of sun we get during the winter solstace times.  Watch the wolves.  (Oh yea, and go sin.  Otherwise you&#8217;ll offend Christians because Jesus would have died for nothing! <img src='http://www.stridera.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
<p>References:</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/S%C3%B3l_%28sun%29</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ragnar%C3%B6k</p>
<p>http://www.thaliatook.com/AMGG/sunna.html</p>
<p>http://www.indepthinfo.com/weekdays/sunday.shtml</p>
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		<title>Happy Saturn Day (Saturday)</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 18 Dec 2010 15:54:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Of all the days of the week, Saturday is the only one that maintains its Roman origin. Saturday is named after Saturn, the Roman god of agriculture and harvest. Saturn&#8217;s influence can be seen in Roman lore as a golden &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/happy-saturn-day-saturday/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Of all the days of the week, Saturday is the only one that maintains its Roman origin.  Saturday is named after Saturn, the Roman god of agriculture and harvest.  Saturn&#8217;s influence can be seen in Roman lore as a golden age, or time of abundance, among men.</p>
<p>According to Wikipedia:<br />
In the Roman tradition, in memory of the Golden Age of man, a mythical age when Saturn was said to have ruled, a great feast called Saturnalia was held during the winter months around the time of the winter solstice. It was originally only one day long, taking place on December 17, but later lasted one week. During Saturnalia, roles of master and slave were reversed, moral restrictions loosened, and the rules of etiquette ignored. It is thought that the festivals of Saturnalia and Lupercalia were the roots of the carnival year.</p>
<p>So, Happy Saturnalia!  Go find your boss and make him serve you dinner!  Praise the God Saturn for your bounty, and screw the silverware; eat with your hands!</p>
<p>References:</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saturn_%28mythology%29</p>
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		<title>Happy Freya-Day! (Friday)  (If you&#8217;re Christian, read at your own risk. :)</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 18 Dec 2010 01:35:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Since we&#8217;re getting close to a holiday that many use to remember their god, I figure I would do the same. While I hope that you may His noodly appendages bless your life with yummy pasta goodness, let us look &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/12/happy-freya-day-friday-if-youre-christian-read-at-your-own-risk/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Since we&#8217;re getting close to a holiday that many use to remember their god, I figure I would do the same.  While I hope that you may His noodly appendages bless your life with yummy pasta goodness, let us look at some older gods.</p>
<p>Friday was named after Freya, the Norse goddess of sex, beauty, love, and fertility.  She was awesome.  She was beautiful, a leader, and she had a chariot pulled by cats!  She owned an amazing necklace that was coveted greatly and a cool falcon feather cloak.  </p>
<p>Back in the day, Friday was considered a lucky day.  It was a day to get married, have children, plant crops, etc.  This was all due to the blessings the goddess would grant on her day.  Christianity, as it usually does, came along and corrupted all the goodness and joy this day one held.  In an effort to bully other religions to make itself look better, the Christians began to denounce Freya as a witch and claimed that many misfortunes befell on this day.  Adam and Eve ate of the forbidden fruit on a Friday.  The great flood happened on a Friday.  And I&#8217;m sure Friday was the day Mary had her affair and lied about it.  (As a side note, many plants in Scandinavia used to bear Freya&#8217;s name, but the Christians changed them to use Mary&#8217;s name instead.)</p>
<p>The Christians also declared Freya was a witch.  They said that her cats, once they served her for 7 years, they would turn into witches disguised as black cats.  It is also said that she came down to a group of witches who numbered 12 and gave them one of her cats.  Since then, witches covens have had 13 members.  This is also why Friday the 13th is considered an evil day.</p>
<p>So, my friends, go out and celebrate Friday the way it was meant to be!  Go, have sex, and play with cats.</p>
<p>References:</p>
<p>http://urbanlegends.about.com/cs/historical/a/friday_the_13th_3.htm</p>
<p>http://www.moggies.co.uk/html/freya.html</p>
<p>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Freyja</p>
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		<title>Introspection</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 03 Nov 2010 08:29:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Matthew Jones</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[There has been something that has been somewhat bothering me for a while. I realized this when I was interviewing for various companies when I was leaving the air force. One company asked me what I looked for in an &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="http://www.stridera.com/2010/11/introspection/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There has been something that has been somewhat bothering me for a while.  I realized this when I was interviewing for various companies when I was leaving the air force.  One company asked me what I looked for in an employer.  I can&#8217;t remember exactly what I answered, but the guy said something to the effect that I needed lots of praise and encouragement.  This completely stunned me since I had never considered it really myself.  I&#8217;m somewhat scared by how true it is.  </p>
<p>I do a lot of things in hopes of being recognized.  I volunteer my time to causes I believe in (Such as building the new website for the local astronomy club), write my novels, and go out of my way to help people at work.  I don&#8217;t want to be famous or anything, (not that I would complain if one of my novels took the charts,) but I want people to look at me and want to know me.  I want people to want to be my friend.  I want this to the point where I feel hurt or even betrayed if someone doesn&#8217;t like me or if they turn down my friendship.  I&#8217;m sure some psychiatrist would tell me that it stems from my parents getting divorced when I was a child and me bouncing back and forth between homes and social groups.  I&#8217;ve taken enough classes and read enough books on the subject to recognize that myself, obviously.  The thing that scares me is that I&#8217;m afraid my obsession(?) with the need to feel wanted makes me cling to relationships or try too hard to obtain someones affection.  I know that it has driven off a few friendships in the past and I wonder what might have been otherwise.</p>
<p>Don&#8217;t get me wrong.  I still love life and try to be the best person I can be in a world full of hate, pain, and malice.  I write this as a means of introspection.  While some aspects of this &#8216;quality&#8217; of mine may be damaging, it does give me drive and purpose to do good things.  Perhaps acceptance is a poor reason for wanting to write, but I do enjoy writing and I really do hope to write something worthwhile.  And since I realize this, maybe I can catch myself and stop the obsession before it scares away or hurts another friendship.</p>
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